Wednesday, May 27, 2009

The Day I fell in Love!

In Love with a Hedgehog.

I first seen the hedgehog in New Zealand. He totally have a personality of its own. Totally different from anything I have seen. Somehow, something about the hedgehog totally attracts me.

The second time, I remembered hearing a snuffling sound in the bush when I was in Te Anua. Under the bright moonlight, I saw it toddled around at the nearby bushes. Minding his own business and was totally unaware of me being so near to it.

I have no idea what, but, something about the little creature is just so intriguing. Making me wanting to know more about what's its all about. The more I get to know it, the more I see it, the more I fell in love. I know it's weird. Somehow, I have gone to have built an interesting personal relationship with it. I wanted to know more about the hedgehog. Somehow, I feel I could relates to it.

Hedgehogs have existed for about 15 million years already. Changing just a little. And, under potential harm, the hedgehogs protect themselves by rolling up into a ball and their quills simply create an impenetrable barrier. Most of the time, they are much more likely to just run away if in danger. An insectivore. It has poor eyesight, but their sense of smell and hearing is really good. It makes little snort sound and totally active only at night.

There is this phrase of "hedgehog's dilemma". And, if you refer to wiki or the urban dictionary, it means:

(1) The closer two beings come to one another in a relationship, the more likely it might be for them to inflict psychological pain on each other
(2) Yet if they remain apart, they each might feel the roughly-equivalent (psychological) pain of loneliness.

Making it even more interesting, isn't it?

I still haven't got a chance to take a photo of the little creature. But, don't think I will have a chance until after winter. The hedgehog would go into hibernation already.

Can't wait to see the little creature again, hopefully in Spring..
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-My Little Hedgehog-

Friday, May 22, 2009

Blogging thru Email

Am testing out this feature .... blogging thru email...seems pretty cool if it works....!

=)

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"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." - Mark Twain

"Experience is What you Get when You don't get what you Wanted" - Prof. Randy Paush

Friday, May 15, 2009

Where am I when I need me the most?


It's definitely not a good time for me now..
So many things had been going on and I can't even cope with it, myself.
I don't even know where to start. At times, I feel things that I thought I always knew seems to just disappeared all together. I didn't know where to go on now and how to go on. I am all confuse of what I want all together and not knowing what would be the right to do anymore.

What am I doing? Where am I? How should I carry on?

I want yet I fear.
I wish but I fear I can't.

Should I?
Yet, I still feel insecure.
But, what if?

Sigh!

Someday, perhaps...
Is it here already?
Could I?

Seize the moment? And, not regret it one day, perhaps.
But, I'll never know.

What if?
Should I?
Could I?
Is it right?

I no longer knew.....

Where am I when I need me the most?

Saturday, May 9, 2009

What is Love?



Is love the feeling of insecurity?
Is love the feeling of excitement?
Is love the feeling to appreciation?
Is love the feeling of worried of losing the other half?
Is love measurable?
Is love painful?
Is love desirable?
Is love long lasting?
Is love short live?
Is love pleasure?
Is love, lust?
Is love passionate?
Is love the feeling of aching for someone?
Is love strong?
Is love always there?
Is love about living?
Is love appears in multiple form?
Is love greed?
Is love selfish?
Is love hurtful?
Is love kind?
Is love when you know it's love?
Is love a desire?
Is love intimate?
Is love always there?

What is love?

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Times passes too quickly for me!

So much to do.....so little time......
I need to take a breath.


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I seriously have not enough time at all or literally no time at all. The time is just passing through me real fast. And, at times, I have no idea where my time had gone to? Did someone stole it from me? Hmmmmmmm!


It was just yester-months that I was preparing to come to New Zealand. Start a new life. Get to know new people. And, I got here and it started slow. Too slow til I was complaining. And, now....it's happening too fast. Everything's happening at the same time. I sometimes, felt that I can't cope with it anymore.


Me, family, personal issues, Uni, Assignments, Exam, Labs, Outing, the weather, theatre, friends, things I want to do, errants, groceries, plans, internet, emails, mails and lots lots more....how am I gonna cope with all these?

I'm probably going nuts already by now. Sigh!

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Now...take a deep breath!
I got to take a deep breath!
I have to...
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To get all there is out of living, we must employ our time wisely, never being
in too much of a hurry to stop and sip life, but never losing our sense of the
enormous value of a minute. -Robert Updegraff