I am in my F*#@ing Late Twenties....Why Am Doing This Again?

Yes, ladies and gentlemen....

I'm in my late twenties...............and, why the hell am I doing this again?

Going back to uni. now? After wasting my early twenties doing f#@*ing, I don't know what......

Sigh!!!!!!!


What am I doing? I really don't know. Is this late-twenties crisis? LOL.....I really don't know.

Seeing most of my friends moving on with their life, most have gotten married and some are either pregnant or have a kid already. And, you won't believe, some are even on the way to getting a divorce. ................................... And, where am I now?

I really F&*#ing don't know.

I guess I am just one of those weird, different....or whatever you call it, kind of person.

I missed out certain things in my life and I am making the most out of it now. I probably do not do the normal journey that everyone takes but, I am getting there just at a different pace and a different time.

Lots of people were asking and some talks behind me. Why am I doing this? Some make assumptions and some just give their hard opinions on what I should or should not do.

It's not that I don't appreciate the kindness of wanting to know what am I thinking or doing but...the easiest way to it, is to just let me be or if you are still just too curious....then, ask.

But, sometimes, I tend to forget and I need certain things to remind me...

So, for those who makes assumptions or just think you know everything......let me tell you something....

This is my life. I can't judge you for judging me but.....I am living the life I want to live.

Since young, I guess I am one hell of a strong-headed person. I get what I want. I do it the way, I want it to be.
**Maybe, that's the downside of being the only child - you get stubborn and ridiculously, trying to get everything your way.

Let me just clear the cloud for you abit,

I think I have never been clearer in my whole life than it is now.....
I know what I want....I am doing what I want......and I am happy at my choices............

Most girls would dread getting older but, I don't. I seriously don't.

I feel like in my teenage years, it was bad, in my early twenties I am all messed up, in my mid-twenties, I was just finding the way, and now, in my late twenties....I am getting there. And, I am very very very sure....in my early thirties, that's when my whole life begins.

But, I guess that's how life is. Everyone takes different paths and you got to live with it. And, here am I. Doing what I think is right by my book.

The whole journey had been most exciting for me.

My teens had been really bad. I have problems at home. I neglected my studies. I party too hard. Got drunk. And, party all over again. The whole dating scenes came in. My academic life was a disaster. And, I still party too hard.

Early twenties was slightly better...Had been in a few relationship. I don't trust guys. Just fooling around. No idea what I want to do in life. Everyone kept telling me what I should and should not be doing. And, I was still wondering....

Mid-twenties, start to understand myself more. I am much more toned down. Went back and study what I wanted to do. I had a great time working at Astro. Met great friends. along the way. Getting stable in my relationship. We got a few assets together. We are planning the future which includes both our dreams. I have more sense, financially. What else can goes wrong at this point?
**Friends are mostly married by this time....**

Late twenties...back on track in fullfilling my personal goals. I am much clearer on what I want now.
I have always wanted to attend the University overseas. Which I am doing it now. I know it's not the normal pace but, I am doing and fullfilling what I want. How many people can say that? =P

I am, living based on my 10 Commandments in life. This includes, live my life, the way I wanted it to be.

Lot's of friends are asking. How about marriage? -"What about marriage?"

It will come when it comes. I'll get there, at my pace. Trust me.

I want to live a fabulous life. Fabulous according to my dictionary. And, not regretting any choice that I have make in my life. Living it the way, I want it to be. What more can I ask for?

I have a fabulous partner.
I have fabulous friends.
I have the most understanding parents in the world.
I am overseas.
I am experiencing my first summer and soon, autumn.
I am fullfilling one of my dreams.
I am living the NEW GENERATION ERA. [Women have more choices, and they can live in those choices. It's not all about marriage and babies only.]

And.................I feel great!!

and....I am sitting on my balkoni with a cup of tea, typing this while enjoying the sun on me.

Everything is almost perfect ..........................................................!!! and, I won't put up with anything less."


.......except, I just wish
to have my good friend for "our gals talk" session here. Miss ya, Ai Ling.

Eleanor Roosevelt
The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experiences.